The change i have become....

Another one from few years back..Rough draft finally gets finished and gets a place on the Blog :)

And it feels like it was an age old tale, it occurs to me each time I try and recollect that I have almost forgotten your face, forgotten those deep eyes which longed for me every now and then...So old and withered that time seems that I can no longer even recall the fragrance of your body that enchanted my soul and brought fervor to my life, If I stumble upon the smell of a perfume you use to wear, it does not bother me anymore, The feel of your kiss when your lips pressed against mine seems like never happened, the little dreams seem a distant reality which never existed.

It’s not that I hate you or I do not want to remember you, somehow I have become apathetic, the feeling has dawned over me and engulfed me in such a way that even if I try to recall I cannot revive those happy faces, neither do I remember those tears that were once enough to tear my soul apart in pieces, break me into shards, while they channelized through my eyes every time I thought of you or I missed you..

Today when I look at myself I might not be the same, but I am happy about what I have become or to precisely put it forward what you have made out of me, I am deprived of certain emotions which once overflowed but with dearth of them I am a much contended person,

I am complacent and I am at peace, I do not have to fight my demons anymore as they were brought to life with you stepping in and with you moving away, your faintest memories fading off now, I have nothing to bother, no exasperation, no aggravation…I am a Jane Doe with an average life where I probably have nothing really precious to lose and nothing very adored to gain either….